The Impossible

When I was younger I was extremely shy. Through college I was extremely shy. Some people thought I was stuck up, but in fact I was scared of the world.  Everyone scared me and I thought everyone was judging me and looking down on me. I was scared of risks and putting myself out there for the world to see.

Why was I like that?

It is only recently that I have started to come out of my shell.  I have found my inner me and I am at peace with who I am. It might be the fact that I am older, but I am not apologizing for who I am anymore.  I am not a bad person. Yes, I may be a little weird, but who isn't?

"It's kind of fun to do the impossible." ~Walt Disney

Yes, it is. Now that I am no longer afraid of the world I am ready to take it on. I am going to take risks and go for my dreams. Just recently (within this past week) I have decided to make my music more of a priority in my life. I have been happily giving violin and viola lessons in the evening as well as play in community orchestras, but it is time to step out of my comfort zone.   I am getting myself prepared to start auditioning for professional orchestras this summer. That's right people. I am taking my playing to the next level and I am ready for it.  It has been a number of years since I have auditioned for anything so I am taking it in steps.

My first step is to audition for Suzuki training this winter.  I have relearned the Schubert Arpeggione Sonata and I surprised at how easy it was to get back in my fingers. It only took an hour or so to get it better than it was back in college! It is amazing how the lack of college stress makes playing more enjoyable and easier. I will continue to work on it so it is super-duper-fantastic.

The next step is to learn the Stamitz Viola Concerto.  Somehow I never learned this piece, and it is one of the biggies for violists. I am not too excited to learn this piece because I have heard so many negative comments about it. I am trying to look at it with un-jaded eyes, because why should I do that to Stamitz? Let's give him a fair try.

It isn't impossible for me to join a professional regional orchestra, and I am looking forward to the challenge. Disney, thank you for understanding the fire that is inside of us when we see a task and set out to do it.