Never Again

There was something I learned with Sebastian.  I cannot lose myself again.  When Sebastian was born I gave up everything and focused on him 110%.  No music, no job, no husband.  Everything else in my life vanished. He was over 2 when I finally came back to playing music again.  Talk about ridiculous!  I learned that I cannot do that.  I cannot let myself suffer.  I am back in symphony, playing and being involved.  I am continuing to cross stitch and cook (when I have time).  The next thing I need to make time for is working out.  I loved running 5Ks, so I want to get fit again so that I can do that.  The hardest thing about making time for me is that there never seems to be enough time in the day.  I still haven't found the balance of life yet,  now that I have two kids.  I will get there in time.  For now, I know what must be done and that includes making sure I have time to be Elyse, and not just Mommy.